Thought I’d get a good night’s sleep last night. Awake every couple or so hours and finally gave up and got up at 4:30 am. As it has been the past weeks. I know that a part of it is my excitement at finally doing what I’ve known I need to for a very long time. The difference is I’ve known but now the spirit is willing. It appears the flesh is as well.
For the past few years my prayers have been to grow in my love for Him. To choose Him over the wine. And all the other the things that get between us.
Today was real lousy in terms of how I felt. I felt great during the week although tired. But today felt like last Saturday only even more intensified. And I wrote how it felt like a withdrawal. So I looked up a blog I bookmarked years ago and read through.
P.A.W.S. Post Acute Withdrawal Symptoms
Very sobering read. If indeed this is what I am experiencing, I definitely need to cut my full speed ahead approach. It’s exhausting me. Tech devices do not agree with my energy field-seems to suck the life force from me. Still no cravings or desire to drink. If anything, after reading through this article my resolve has been strengthened more than ever.
The prescription I wrote myself today was permission to accomplish only the absolute necessities and to rest.
Taking a long epsom/sea salt and lavender soak was just what I needed.