Thinking about the work related birthday party I’ve chosen to attend tomorrow night. Not so much about having to resist a drink- I don’t think that will be an issue at all. I just want to have a casual, short and sweet response as to why I’m not drinking. Cut ’em off at the pass kind of answer.
I was very honest with the owners and my co-workers when I started this job 6 years ago. They knew I was newly sober and I had also told them about my previous sober history. Still, they would press me to join them in a drink as I didn’t fit their idea of an alcoholic.
It was a tough year not drinking. Feeling deprived. Left out. Resentful. Watching everyone have “fun”. Then the Christmas party happened. I went knowing full well I was going to drink the expensive red wine.
And that was that.
It gave me another five years of drinking under my belt.
I was also going through a divorce that first year. Had absolutely no idea who I was without my husband. I had given my entire life over to him- his friends, his interests; all at the expense of my own.
Here I am now.
So much has changed. I know who I am without my husband but I do not yet know who I am without the drink- although I’m beginning to get a picture and I like it…
I like it a lot.