to my neighbor but God compares me to my former self.” Matthew Kelly
Watching ‘It’s the Great Pumpkin’ (so corny!) and drinking Kombucha tea, my favorite sober drink. Yes it’s Saturday night. And yes, I’m absolutely content.
Great ending to an outstanding week. My prayers have been answered with regard to my boss. Rather they’ve been answered regarding my ability to respond in a new way to my boss. As opposed to last week, this week he was appreciative, considerate and respectful.
Instead of my knee jerk reactions of “right back atcha'” in response to his belittling behavior toward me, I had tried extremely hard (and succeeded) in just letting things slide and keeping my mouth shut. Two wrongs never make a right. They only make a bigger, uglier wrong that’s hard to mend.
So now I would like to respond with love and compassion; I’d like my heart to get in on it. Have it turn from stone to flesh. “Letting things slide” and “keeping my mouth shut” are all well and good but come on, really? Sounds more like survivor mode. Still trying to save myself.
The Lord deserves much more of me than that. My boss does too.
The thing of it is, if I were still drinking I would not be here trying to work this out. Nope. I would have opened another bottle of red whine and nothing would ever change.
Not me. Not him.
Grateful to be sober another day. Thanks be to God.