my brother in law died today.
please don’t send a lot of messages- just wanted to let you know.
it will heal.
i will miss captain krusa so very much.
He’s in a better place.
One that I know I will be…one day.
Pray for my sister….please.
I have had 3 glorious days of rest… much-needed rest.
I finally feel ready to go back to work. The laundry’s done, replenished the cupboards- sans the vino, the apartment is clean and in order.
And I’ve gotten some good rest.
I’m also working on something…possibility of other employment.
But I’ll do my best and leave the rest to the Lord. He always has my back.
So grateful I’ve been given another chance…. sober another day.
That makes 3.
“My Lord God I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself…
and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that my desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”
Thomas Merton, Trappist Monk
Grateful for day 2.
Thanks be to God.
This is a very messy topic for me.
Because of my family history, I grew up with no boundaries.
Physical. Emotional. Or Mental.
This has been a long standing wound. And I still fail to navigate it.
I used to tell anyone who would listen what had happened. What was happening. What was happening in that very moment.
Down inside of me.
I set myself up.
For pain and betrayal.
So for me, honesty is not the very best policy.
I am honest with the people who I trust and feel won’t judge me…
I am not about to announce to all those other people that I am an absolute nut job.
What is honesty and what does it mean to be honest?
Thanks be to