You don’t know me.
I don’t know you but I know who you are. You dated a friend of mine a while back and I witnessed the happy pics of you on Facebook when you were together. They were pics of you and he dancing at the old hotel.
You looked beautiful.
I could tell that you were a drinker because, well, it takes one to know one; but it wasn’t obvious.
I know things didn’t work out and you are in the same situation you were before, which wasn’t good or healthy. I’m sorry and I so want to reach out to you. Things…relationships, work, life in general….everything can be different.
You are in my prayers and if our paths cross again and you are sober I have promised the Lord that I would offer my hand.
In the meantime, I thank you.
You began to enter the shop but stopped short…you realized the liquor store was the next door down. The glimpse I caught of you left me dumbstruck. And very, very sad.
It was about 5 o’clock “happy hour”…
You looked as if you had just gotten out of bed. I couldn’t tell if your cheek was black and blue or if it was a last-minute smear of makeup to try to look “presentable”.
You had a smile on your face that didn’t match your appearance. It was more of a grin divorced from reality.
It broke my heart.
I know you won’t remember coming out for more.
I’m truly sorry…..
but
I have gained from your misery.
You have unknowingly made me stronger….
your face etched in sadness will be forever in my mind.
There, but for the grace of God go I.
That sounds sad 😦 Definitely not a state any of us want to be in, don’t go back there, big hug x
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I’m not going back- just keeping fresh the nasties. Via others.
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Absolutely beautiful, Elizabeth. How kind you are to offer her your prayers. And it’s so true! There but for the grace of God. I see these same women where I live. I hope I have the courage to reach out when the chance arises. In the way my life works, I’m sure there’s an encounter on the way. Your blog was the heads-up.
xoxo
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Thank you Shawna. It was definitely a moment where I was taken off guard. Both with how she looked and my reaction of compassion and sadness for her.
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I was just writing a note on the blog below, and I had the same feeling you did. There but for the grace of God. Check it out if you have a moment.
https://mothersnevergiveup.wordpress.com
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wow. yes, Shawna. Thank you! The reminders can be amazing if one is awake!
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The perfect word — awake. I am trying to stay awake these days. xoxo
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Yes, very sad for this woman. For someone I don’t know, it had a powerful effect. For me- I need to “go back” to keep the (nasty) memory strong.
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I agree. Reminders like this are important…even though they are sad.
I know I could be that woman…and so I do whatever it takes to protect myself.
Thank you for that.
Anne
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Thank you, Shawna, for the post on https://mothersnevergiveup.wordpress.com/ I need to pass this along to my sister.
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I had a similar incident yesterday at the shop, at first I thought the guy trying to buy cigarettes was a bit mad but then realised he was completely motherlessly drunk. I felt so bad for him. There by the grace of God, I say these words every damn day of my life.
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amen.
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Yes, I often think of what I must have sounded like when I’d go to a store drunk.
You are so right…there by the Grace of God, go I.
xo
Wendy
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Amazing how others, neighbors, people in our lives can shake that old ghost in our bones. Then make us grateful we don’t live in that old skin. I love the form this blog post took. A letter you couldn’t send, filled with the words you had to write. And those that understand get to read it, and be helped by it. Prayers for you…and your neighbor.
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Thank you Mark. I was so disturbed by seeing this woman as she was. I tried but couldn’t let her image go….it was too intimately woven with my own. Writing this “letter” was the only way I could let it be.
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This is so beautiful and melancholy. Reminds me of this weekend, I spent time with young woman in my family struggling with alcohol. The glimpse into her misery, just reminded me of our infinite sadness and fatigue when my husband was using. Want to reach out, not sure it’s my place.
Best to you. ❤️❤️❤️
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Thank you reallife. Best to you as well.
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