One and done. Farewell…for now

I began WTW because I had a desperate desire to put down the alcohol; not because I wanted to write.  But I began to witness this amazing sober community of strength and support and (mostly) non-judgemental attitudes.  And these people were doing it!  Living sober.  And some had been living it for years.  AND…..they were happy.

So I wrote.

I felt it might be my last shot.

Well here I am with 1 year and 2 weeks today.  Unrecognizable at every turn.  I’m at peace with who I am in sobriety and who I am becoming. I am full of hope and look forward to pursuing my remaining years as a sober woman.  By God’s grace, I will pass from this world to the next sober.  One of my goals is to be a kinder, gentler version of myself.  Emphasize the positive traits, temper down the character flaws and defects and mix well with a lot of love!  I’m down 15 pounds although part of that was leaving the cheese shop! I love my job now and the people I lead.  The gratitude most days is overflowing.

I don’t even blink now when someone asks me why I don’t drink-  so rude to begin with.  I just look deadpan at them eye to eye and say “Oh you go first and tell me why you do.”  Usually there’s an awkward silence and then some mumbling.  Gets ’em every time.

  Should someone ever actually take me up on it and list reasons, they’ll be listing all the reasons I don’t.

I do not need to drink anymore.  Not that I’m cured, oh no way.  But way deep down inside of me I feel like a non-drinker.  If it weren’t for the lifetime of wretched memories, it would feel like it’s never even been a part of my life.

BUT…..

you all know we all have “those” days.

That’s why it’s so important to work hard to develop those emotional/mental/spiritual muscles and strong self-care routines early on.  The healthy habits will help pull you through those times of tests and trials.  Along with lots of support from those who’ve gone before you.

So…..

this will be my last post for the foreseeable future.  I’m leaving the blog in place should I feel inspired.  Right now though the thought of writing is painful.  I want to enjoy it- not feel burdened by it.  It’s just not happening for me now.

I will leave you all with two things:

The first is a link to one of my sober heroes latest blog post.  This year did not come easy for me.  I started to become a chronic relapser.  Her posts are always uplifting and in this latest she writes of why it’s so hard to get/stay sober.

Tipsy No More

The second is something I read during my morning prayers last week.  I immediately thought of this sober community.  It is written from one Christian sojourner to another;  someone he’s never met.

“It is not surprising if, despite being far apart, we are present to each other….because we are members of one body, we have one head, we are steeped in one grace, we live on one loaf, we walk on one road, and we dwell in the same house.”      St. Paulinus of Nola to St. Augustine

Peace and Love to you all and may you be blessed.

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!

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Author: Elizabeth

Living a life of unceasing prayer in gratitude to Him who saved me.

16 thoughts on “One and done. Farewell…for now”

  1. I missed this one too. So bad of me. I hope I haven’t missed you entirely. This part made me laugh out loud, Elizabeth.

    “I don’t even blink now when someone asks me why I don’t drink- so rude to begin with. I just look deadpan at them eye to eye and say “Oh you go first and tell me why you do.” Usually there’s an awkward silence and then some mumbling. Gets ’em every time.”

    LOVE that. Love to you.

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  2. Absolutely wonderful. This is so my experience here: “If it weren’t for the lifetime of wretched memories, it would feel like it’s never even been a part of my life.” So true!

    And I’m copying the quote from St. Paulinus of Nola for my memoirs. Haha! But I do agree with you — there is a very real connection with online sober friends.

    It’s been an honor, Elizabeth. 💕

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    1. Mara!! Oh I’m so sorry it never worked out getting together. Let’s hope the stars align to make it happen! I’ve thought about you so often and am so happy to see you! It’s been a weird crazy summer and lots of family chaos has occupied my time and energy. Looking forward to some rest and catching up here in bloggerville. Love to you girlfriend and your man. ❤

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  3. I love this! Also the part about starting to feel burdened by the blogging and so leaving it for awhile, I totally get that. This is great too: “I just look deadpan at them eye to eye and say “Oh you go first and tell me why you do [drink].” I just might give that a try sometime :))

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