I rescued her in 2007 from a shelter. She’d been there for a year after being taken from a home along with 152 other cats. Some not living. Horrible. But I guess the woman meant well. So often our intentions are good and we can’t see we’re making a hell for others.
Animal or human.
Sammy looked nothing like the photo above. She was one solid mat ball of fur. And, wow, she stunk…. real bad.
Oh, but she was a sweetie.
A loving, affectionate mess of a cat and I had to have her… my husband (at the time) is a “designer” kind of guy. At least he was then. Everything he owned had to make a statement of excellence. We argued. “But she’s a mess!” he cried. “Yeah? Well so am I!” I piped back at him.
Turned out she really only responded to me. She was actually quite feral but slowly she began to trust and we healed together. You see I had rescued Sammy right after I was released from the hospital. Locked ward kind of hospital thanks to Lexapro. Four weeks into it, it triggered a manic psychotic episode and then a downward dive into a suicidal despair.
So Sammy and I, we were both a little off at the time. Both traumatized by life.
My sweet 20 year old kitty is not well. Dr. Bernie thinks it might be lymphoma. I know I’ve given her a wonderful life and I have no words for what she has given me. Pure love and joy….and healing. I guess those are words but they seem so inadequate. I’ve never had the bond with another animal that I have with her. She is truly supernatural. I sometimes wonder- she seems part dog, part human with a little cat thrown in.
I can’t fix this.
I just don’t want her to suffer.
Please pray for her peaceful passing.
I am so very grateful to all of you. This incredible tribe of sober warriors.