“The way home every single time is this:
After my worst failure, after I am convinced this time I have gone too far and destroyed too much, I must believe who God says I am.
I am not defined by my erratic behaviors but by something so much deeper, infinitely strong and constant. I am a new creature.
When I find myself risking to trust this way of seeing, the power of the lie begins to vanish and that increasing confidence in who I really am becomes the bedrock that will break my shame and addiction so I get to live free for the rest of my life.”
Although this quote from the film “The Heart of Man” relates to sexual addiction, all addiction stems from the same misguided attempts to make ourselves whole.
I’m coming up on 3 years sober and free and in spite of tremendous upheavals and emotional pain in my life, and I know that I am far from alone in this at this time, I still remain with no desire to drink or medicate myself. Thanks be to God.
Haven’t been around as ya’ll know…. I’ve been on an extended self-directed retreat of solitude. I am blessed to be able to afford myself this opportunity.
Ending this with one more quote from the same film. William Paul Young, author of The Shack, is the author of this one.
See you next time I come up for air.
“We have no idea about the truth of our beings. We do not know how relentless this affection is that will pursue us, wrap itself around our brokenness and sing us into healing.
Every single one of us matters and the choices we make matter.
Every choice to forgive, to be kind, to be authentic, to open up our inside worlds to tell our secrets- these things change the cosmos- not just inside you, but inside this whole created universe in which we dwell
Who you are matters and who you’re becoming matters.
You’re the one He left the 99 to go and find.”
With much love and prayers to all of you amazing warriors.
And thank you…. I wouldn’t be sober without all your love and support.